“快乐”其实就在一颗不再追求的“心”，所以须要去“追”的“快乐”只是一霎那的真实。像盐水止渴，无法真正满足。知足心，已经满足了，无所求。
Again, happiness has always been "in" here, the heart being at ease. No real happiness can be seeked from the outside.
After the PBS camp (Poly buddhist society camp), a talk by bro. sebestian from palelai. I have learnt alot and had seen the path even clearer. Basically, suffering and unhappiness comes when we don't accpet it. We don't accept that we will age, ppl go around doing surgery, make-ups or dye hair...etc. We don't accept we will fall ill, when people fall ill, they sad, angry, fear or worry. We don't accept death, therefore fear even the mentioning of the word "Death", refuse to face it. I am subject to illness, aging and death, therefore i began to free from fear and pain slowly as i accept. when illness comes, arh, yes, thats it, i knew it will came, what is there to worry? We don't want to accept changes, therefore we suffer as well. Accept that all things will change.
Happiness, unhappiness, loss, gain, honour, dishonour, praises and blames. Our mind constantly change according to them, which causes suffering. Maintaining the heart in equanimous state, the pleasent doesn't stir, the unpleasent doesn't irritate as the wise seen them subject to change and will pass away. Unaffected mind is at ease, griefless, dustless and secure. Isn' that happiness? Happiness is no where than here, the mind at ease. Really at ease. Seeking happiness from sensuous pleasure cannot ease the thirst of desire, just like the salt water can never ease the thirst. The heart which stops seeking after anything is at ease and therefore happy and free from suffering. The heart which doesn't seek after anymore is itself contented, the desire is fufilled. Like plain water had ease the thirst...therefore: “快乐”其实就在一颗不再追求的“心”，所以须要去“追”的“快乐”只是一霎那的真实。像盐水止渴，无法真正满足。知足心，已经满足了，无所求。
some part is still theory to me, but i am at part of it as well. haha~
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Thursday, October 20, 2005
感动~
哈！终于完成“轩辕剑3外传之天之痕”。不知道为什么DOMO小组的“仙剑”和”轩辕剑“的剧情，我都很喜欢。四个字-〉扣人心弦。哈哈~！每次到结局都能令我起鸡皮疙瘩，竖毛。他们制作的RPG我只有一种感觉，那就是“感动”。在游戏里可以看到历史，可以感受到人情。人，魔，仙三界的关系，以及其中的感情。虽然是假的，但是概念我很喜欢，而且其概念是实际的代表。
游戏也学得到东西哦~！这次体会到了，你以为你很对。其实未必。就像剧情里的。宇文拓和陈靖仇一样。绝对推崇大家~！若要玩游戏，玩轩辕剑！！！或仙剑奇侠专！！！玩的时候要根据情走，细细的体会。其实，每样事物包括游戏，是有教导着一些珍贵的东西。虽然不是每一种游戏都有，但“仙剑”和”轩辕剑“一定有，而且是人情与道德。
好感动。。。现在还在感动着。现在的背景音乐也是“天之痕”的。
游戏也学得到东西哦~！这次体会到了，你以为你很对。其实未必。就像剧情里的。宇文拓和陈靖仇一样。绝对推崇大家~！若要玩游戏，玩轩辕剑！！！或仙剑奇侠专！！！玩的时候要根据情走，细细的体会。其实，每样事物包括游戏，是有教导着一些珍贵的东西。虽然不是每一种游戏都有，但“仙剑”和”轩辕剑“一定有，而且是人情与道德。
好感动。。。现在还在感动着。现在的背景音乐也是“天之痕”的。
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Wonderful Birthday i had...
Happy Birthday to Me...haha...
Thanks everyone for your wishes and presents.
This was my first birthday which i got presents from friends.
I spent my birthday firstly a meeting at the por kar see monastery with a couple of sms of happy birthdays from friends, I received my first birthday present from Derrick. Then i went to city hall to meet my family members for a dinner. While i was waiting, i when to brash basha complex and i meet Hong Zhi and David~! Actually, i was called to shop with them de, but no choice got meeting. Unexpectedly i met them, and i recieved my 2nd present.
Everything is soomth sailing today. Really smooth and fufilling. Then my family and I when to kuishinbo and had a meal. I had a nice dinner and a happy one...on the way back we got up to a mercedes taxi~! A comfortable ride home. I look at the city while traveling on the highway. Such a beautiful night, I was fill with contentment. I said enough, it is enough already. I am at ease, i am in happiness. I am grateful to be born in such a good environment like Singapore. I apprecitate the good I have got. Treasure and cherish, soon they will fade away, the law of impermenance. Let go, glad I am not very attached to the happiness to the extend that I wanted them to be forever lasting as this thought will lead me to suffering. When I am happy, I can fill myself with loving kindness. Positive though arise, and i shall maintain it. All negative shall be supressed and i will put in effort to maintain positive thought of love and kindness towards everything.
No longer I feel disgusted with lizards, they looked so cute to me, fishes no longer hide away from me. Filling with unconditioned Loving kindness is such blissful feeling then love from attachment. Enough, I am satisfied and i am happy. Though I am not perfected to be free from worldly attachment because i know i still have attachment and desires, but the path of cesastion of suffering is made known to me, i could manage all this better.
Thanks~! Everyone, I really had a Happy Birthday. Supposingly today i should celebrate for my mum then for me. I shouldn't be the focus, this is the day where she bare all suffering of giving bith to me. Thanks Mum. Thanks Friends:
"Even sour rice gruel becomes sweet when given by a friend."
Thanks everyone for your wishes and presents.
This was my first birthday which i got presents from friends.
I spent my birthday firstly a meeting at the por kar see monastery with a couple of sms of happy birthdays from friends, I received my first birthday present from Derrick. Then i went to city hall to meet my family members for a dinner. While i was waiting, i when to brash basha complex and i meet Hong Zhi and David~! Actually, i was called to shop with them de, but no choice got meeting. Unexpectedly i met them, and i recieved my 2nd present.
Everything is soomth sailing today. Really smooth and fufilling. Then my family and I when to kuishinbo and had a meal. I had a nice dinner and a happy one...on the way back we got up to a mercedes taxi~! A comfortable ride home. I look at the city while traveling on the highway. Such a beautiful night, I was fill with contentment. I said enough, it is enough already. I am at ease, i am in happiness. I am grateful to be born in such a good environment like Singapore. I apprecitate the good I have got. Treasure and cherish, soon they will fade away, the law of impermenance. Let go, glad I am not very attached to the happiness to the extend that I wanted them to be forever lasting as this thought will lead me to suffering. When I am happy, I can fill myself with loving kindness. Positive though arise, and i shall maintain it. All negative shall be supressed and i will put in effort to maintain positive thought of love and kindness towards everything.
No longer I feel disgusted with lizards, they looked so cute to me, fishes no longer hide away from me. Filling with unconditioned Loving kindness is such blissful feeling then love from attachment. Enough, I am satisfied and i am happy. Though I am not perfected to be free from worldly attachment because i know i still have attachment and desires, but the path of cesastion of suffering is made known to me, i could manage all this better.
Thanks~! Everyone, I really had a Happy Birthday. Supposingly today i should celebrate for my mum then for me. I shouldn't be the focus, this is the day where she bare all suffering of giving bith to me. Thanks Mum. Thanks Friends:
"Even sour rice gruel becomes sweet when given by a friend."
Back from my retreat
Wonderful! This was my 2nd retreat at the forest monastery. Each time was an enlightening and uplifting experience to me. Indeed the Buddha's dhamma is beautiful in the start, beautiful in the middle and beautiful at the end.Each conversation there was a "Level up" to me, and all of it came to solve my problems and sufferings in me without mentioning them in words. Meditation was the second thing this time round as we had really no energy to meditate but to fall as sleep. We have been helping to mop floor, wipe windows. We helped to Plant trees, lay water pipe, repair the water pipes and i had to climb tree to cut fruits, haha. Hey~! and the drawing i was ask to drawn by the venerable was really built~! He used my old plans and section to built. The building is a 2 storey building cost about RM100,000 = $50,000.
Too much for me to document everything, really too much, but it is all up in my mind.
If i were to summaries everything it would be the truth of happiness. No doubt everyone is in search of happiness, but actually it is just right here and now in us. Nothing outside of us. Being at ease is happiness. When you stop and desire no more, that is happiness. All the while we are trying to ease our thirst of wanting by taking in salt water. The more you take the more you want. No end, no fufilling. Stop~! Stay still, here and now, come back form the past and future. Truth is here and now. Create no more in the mind, be still and equanimous. Just like the trees, it is just there, doesn't choose who to shade. That is at ease, in happiness.
The Venerable made a joke, the greatest taste is tastless. Take care of every cause and never worry about the effect and consequence. by taking care of the cause of everything you do, the cause will take care of its effects. small things can lead to big stuffs, beware.
This is enough as other teaching I would just have to keep in my memory bank. I had learn something from a friend as well. A Big lesson which is as powerful as the other teachings by the teachers and had deeply imprint in my heart. Painful but later, Blissful:
"A dish may be coarse, savory or sweet,
It may be meager or it may abound,
Yet if offered with friendship and with love,
Then a delicious meal is always found." (J 346)~ Buddha ~
I dedicate all the merits which i had from this marvellous retreat to all beings whom i have seen or not seen, visible or invisible, up to the higest plane, down to the lowest plane of existance and may they be well and happy, free from suffering.
Too much for me to document everything, really too much, but it is all up in my mind.
If i were to summaries everything it would be the truth of happiness. No doubt everyone is in search of happiness, but actually it is just right here and now in us. Nothing outside of us. Being at ease is happiness. When you stop and desire no more, that is happiness. All the while we are trying to ease our thirst of wanting by taking in salt water. The more you take the more you want. No end, no fufilling. Stop~! Stay still, here and now, come back form the past and future. Truth is here and now. Create no more in the mind, be still and equanimous. Just like the trees, it is just there, doesn't choose who to shade. That is at ease, in happiness.
The Venerable made a joke, the greatest taste is tastless. Take care of every cause and never worry about the effect and consequence. by taking care of the cause of everything you do, the cause will take care of its effects. small things can lead to big stuffs, beware.
This is enough as other teaching I would just have to keep in my memory bank. I had learn something from a friend as well. A Big lesson which is as powerful as the other teachings by the teachers and had deeply imprint in my heart. Painful but later, Blissful:
"A dish may be coarse, savory or sweet,
It may be meager or it may abound,
Yet if offered with friendship and with love,
Then a delicious meal is always found." (J 346)~ Buddha ~
I dedicate all the merits which i had from this marvellous retreat to all beings whom i have seen or not seen, visible or invisible, up to the higest plane, down to the lowest plane of existance and may they be well and happy, free from suffering.
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